I'm an elitist jerk with musicians. Millions of guitar players out there, 10% actually understand their place in a band of any type, only 10% of the remainder truly understand how to bring more to the equation than the number you are.
That being said, at one time my goal in life was to play in a symphony. As absurd as it sounds, I played a mean tuba. Damn good, too. If there was a knock, I understood too well my place in the arrangement; the foundation.
I never shoulda got rid of that tuba. One of these days, imma get another, practice up, and play again. I stay away from trance music, as its just lame and repetitive. And yet playing the old exercises over and over puts me on a different plane of existence, like I assume trance does for so many. The closest to peace with myself and my surroundings, the closest to normal, and a part of something bigger than myself I can ever remember being.
I started playing to have something in common with friends in Jr high. Sure enough, I lasted longer and did better than any of them. I strive so hard to be the type of person I played to be. And now, I'm finding that I didn't learn enough.
If i ever claim another religion, it'll be music.
