It destroys because I play horribly

Right now I'm just trying to decipher and memorize it, then I will write down it and practise a few months, by that time I'll be able to perform it, well, not well but not as horrible as I do now. Lol, it's a very long and complex solo which requires pro skills and all kind of violin tecniques. There is no harm for me to confess that it's way beyond me to perform such a solo, as of now, plus I'd had a break with my violin for some years 'cause of my military years.
Maqam(makam in turkish) is basically a musical system(And also refers to each mold of melody types(modes) like the scales in the western music). It's the base of the middle eastern music. It is the main structure of the traditional, classical and partially folk musics of the Turkish, Persian, Arabic, Azeri and some of the Balkan Musics and constitutes partially in Indian music or some of far eastern music.
You can think it as an advanced microtonal music.
For example, in the western music we devide octave into 12 semitones, like this; A, Ab(B#), B, C, Cb(D#), D, Db(E#), E, F, Fb(G#), G, Gb(A#), A...
In Turkish makam system, we devide same octave into 53 equal microtones(we call each one of them as koma, comma in eng) to produce 8 notes(the octave) with non-equal distances.
Thanks to this little commas, one can produce rich and soulful melodies. But a person who is unused to hear makam music(or other microtonal musics) can find it strange at first. Lol, I've even heard many pro musicians saying "it's out of tune" when they first listened to a traditional middle eastern music.
Here are a couple of violin examples, performing Taksim(improvisation in makam rules) in Hicaz Makam.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=77QwqslLASE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PBW1V5uyfMQ