I'm not saying depression isn't a real disease because it is. There are many people who battle it and find the strength to go on. I have had loved ones and a very dear friend who was like a brother to me take their own life and the damage left behind is also immeasurable. If you're that low, continue to try to get help. It's his wife and loved ones that I would shed the tears for. They are the ones who deserve the tears because they are the ones left behind to wonder what they might have done, even if it's nothing. I am watching some good people battle for each and every day so I just can't work up the tears for someone who saw no way out. Sorry.