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LogGrad98

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As much as it's worth, I'll take what I can get. My wife goes in for surgery in 2 days, she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer and is set for a hysterectomy on Thursday. It's brought back lots of memories and discussion from my own cancer treatment now 27 years ago. They said the scans look like it's likely stage 1 but her blood test showed "extremely" high (the doctor's words) markers for ovarian cancer so it is likely to either be stage 1 or stage 3, but the scans don't show immediate signs of metastasizing, so we are hopeful it's stage 1.

And now especially in our 34th year of marriage it's a tough thing when the thought hits me of what if it's worse than we think. I can't imagine my life without her. We were 21 and 23 when we got married. Too young by far. But apparently it's worked out. And to think of everything we've been through in those years we are so far removed from who we were back then. It's kind of amazing we've made it work this long, especially with what an obvious ******* I am. She means so much to me. I can't lose her.

I hope I can do her some justice as her caregiver when she has been mine so much over the years. She keeps me going through everything we've been through. I'll give her the best I have to offer.

Anyway don't mean to get maudlin about it but my emotions have been so up and down over the past few weeks since we got the diagnosis. So keep her in your thoughts if you can. She means the world to me. We both recently left the LDS church, well for me it's been a few years but very recent for her, and we talked about how much comfort religion brought in times like this even though we both know it to be a sham now. But it did feel like you were invoking a higher power to put your hands on someone and bless them in the name of God, and it did bring comfort. Now where does the comfort come from?

So I thought I'd invoke the comfort of jazz fanz. Goddamn how pathetic is that? lol

Any thoughts or prayers or whatever you believe would be appreciated. Or just wish us luck.

Thanks for listening. Maybe I just needed to rant about this all for a bit but I do feel a bit better.
 
wowzers man that's heavy. I'm glad you feel free to reach out to those here. Nothing is worse than carrying burdens like that alone.

Thoughts, prayers, love, best wishes everything possible to you and your family from the other side of the globe man.


Also i agree you are an obvious ******** lol jk

as an aside leaving a church organization doesn't necessarily terminate the thought that there is a God/higher power to bring comfort if that's something that does resonate.

Keep us up to date
 
I lost my mother to cancer. I don't wish it on anyone that they have to go through someone they love suffering from cancer.

I hope that you wife recovers with as little struggle and pain as possible. I mean this as deeply as I can mean anything. My thoughts are with you and my heart aches with yours.
 
LogGrad98 said:
As much as it's worth, I'll take what I can get. My wife goes in for surgery in 2 days, she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer and is set for a hysterectomy on Thursday. It's brought back lots of memories and discussion from my own cancer treatment now 27 years ago. They said the scans look like it's likely stage 1 but her blood test showed "extremely" high (the doctor's words) markers for ovarian cancer so it is likely to either be stage 1 or stage 3, but the scans don't show immediate signs of metastasizing, so we are hopeful it's stage 1.

And now especially in our 34th year of marriage it's a tough thing when the thought hits me of what if it's worse than we think. I can't imagine my life without her. We were 21 and 23 when we got married. Too young by far. But apparently it's worked out. And to think of everything we've been through in those years we are so far removed from who we were back then. It's kind of amazing we've made it work this long, especially with what an obvious ******* I am. She means so much to me. I can't lose her.

I hope I can do her some justice as her caregiver when she has been mine so much over the years. She keeps me going through everything we've been through. I'll give her the best I have to offer.

Anyway don't mean to get maudlin about it but my emotions have been so up and down over the past few weeks since we got the diagnosis. So keep her in your thoughts if you can. She means the world to me. We both recently left the LDS church, well for me it's been a few years but very recent for her, and we talked about how much comfort religion brought in times like this even though we both know it to be a sham now. But it did feel like you were invoking a higher power to put your hands on someone and bless them in the name of God, and it did bring comfort. Now where does the comfort come from?

So I thought I'd invoke the comfort of jazz fanz. Goddamn how pathetic is that? lol

Any thoughts or prayers or whatever you believe would be appreciated. Or just wish us luck.

Thanks for listening. Maybe I just needed to rant about this all for a bit but I do feel a bit better.
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Here I was thinking it was another mass shooting. I would pray but as an atheist a vengeful god may see my prayers as an affront.

My mum had the same surgery 35 years ago, I was just a kid, I remember being at the hospital with dad overnight, I don't think id ever seen him that worried about anything, then or since. My thoughts are with you and your family mate, stay positive.
 
Thanks for sharing and being vulnerable and invoking the power of Jazzfanz, lol. My heart goes out to you and your wife and I'm hoping for the best for you two.

Keep posting updates, especially if it is helpful.
 
I’m so sorry to hear this, and I will pray your wife beats this and recovers completely. You are a good man, and you have friends here that care about you. We are all pulling for you and hoping for a speedy recovery.
 
Damn log, I'm sorry to hear that. I wish you all the best bro.
 
LogGrad98 said:
As much as it's worth, I'll take what I can get. My wife goes in for surgery in 2 days, she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer and is set for a hysterectomy on Thursday. It's brought back lots of memories and discussion from my own cancer treatment now 27 years ago. They said the scans look like it's likely stage 1 but her blood test showed "extremely" high (the doctor's words) markers for ovarian cancer so it is likely to either be stage 1 or stage 3, but the scans don't show immediate signs of metastasizing, so we are hopeful it's stage 1.

And now especially in our 34th year of marriage it's a tough thing when the thought hits me of what if it's worse than we think. I can't imagine my life without her. We were 21 and 23 when we got married. Too young by far. But apparently it's worked out. And to think of everything we've been through in those years we are so far removed from who we were back then. It's kind of amazing we've made it work this long, especially with what an obvious ******* I am. She means so much to me. I can't lose her.

I hope I can do her some justice as her caregiver when she has been mine so much over the years. She keeps me going through everything we've been through. I'll give her the best I have to offer.

Anyway don't mean to get maudlin about it but my emotions have been so up and down over the past few weeks since we got the diagnosis. So keep her in your thoughts if you can. She means the world to me. We both recently left the LDS church, well for me it's been a few years but very recent for her, and we talked about how much comfort religion brought in times like this even though we both know it to be a sham now. But it did feel like you were invoking a higher power to put your hands on someone and bless them in the name of God, and it did bring comfort. Now where does the comfort come from?

So I thought I'd invoke the comfort of jazz fanz. Goddamn how pathetic is that? lol

Any thoughts or prayers or whatever you believe would be appreciated. Or just wish us luck.

Thanks for listening. Maybe I just needed to rant about this all for a bit but I do feel a bit better.
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Wow man, heavy. We'll be here for you if you need anything, Log. Don't hesitate to use this place if you find it helpful. Give my best to your wife and let her know we are thinking of her and thankful for her helping your dumb *** along all these years.
 
Thank you all so much for the kind words. It's been a terrible roller coaster. They did updated scans and found a spot on her pancreas so the surgery just got upgraded. Here I am trying to get to sleep so I can be ready to take her in the morning and I can't get my brain to settle down. We are still hopeful. The dr said the spots could be cancer and could also be a variety of other things and that she and the radiologist both don't think they look like typical cancer nodules in the pancreas but we won't know until they get in there. Today my wife was really happy, felt really optimistic, and I did my best to enjoy that with her and not drag her down, and I think I did pretty good keeping a lid on my worry. I hope she continues to feel that way. My work has been stellar about all this. My boss more or less said take any time I need to take care of her. He said "if you show up one day I'll assume you are at work that day, if you don't, I'll assume you're at home that day. It's up to you but I promise you the paychecks will keep coming no matter what and you won't have to worry about a job here." Fantastic guy. Best boss I've ever had.

And again, thank you all for the great comments and well wishes. It does help sometimes to know you are not alone, even if it is just a bunch of Internet whackos, at least you know someone has your back. Thanks so much. I'll update here when we get more info after the surgery. I'm happy to be part of such a great community here. Love you guys.
 
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