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Oh, I went back and looked at the thread in question. I wasn't sure if the UGLI forum password had changed and it hadn't. But I left that forum and stayed away out of respect. I did go back and peek today, though.

So I actually had just started working as a security guard for $9.50/hr when my wife's car broke down.

Just wanted to clarify. I had assumed this all happened in 2012, but it happened in 2013.
 
Oh, I went back and looked at the thread in question. I wasn't sure if the UGLI forum password had changed and it hadn't. But I left that forum and stayed away out of respect. I did go back and peek today, though.

So I actually had just started working as a security guard for $9.50/hr when my wife's car broke down.

Just wanted to clarify. I had assumed this all happened in 2012, but it happened in 2013.

Apology accepted bro.
Memories are fragile.
It's all good.
 
Not looking for a job because you have money to fall back on...for a while.

Like I said, I was at a low.

You might have missed the whole family history of people killing themselves. My father's younger brother killed himself around this time as well.

My sister has made several very serious suicide attempts that she was saved from because someone was int he right place at the right time, against the odds, to save her. She's much better now and has been for a long time. But I have a family history of depression and suicide.

For the record I have never made the slightest attempt at suicide. Only one in my immediate family who can say that. I'm also the only one who has never been on anti-depressants. The only one who has not undergone significant mental therapy.

But regardless, I was not happy. I was not healthy. I was not fit for employment.

I'm very sure depression is hard for people who have not been seriously depressed to understand. I'm sure it's easy to assume it's about having a defeatist attitude, being lazy, etc.

Whatever.

And once you've had a gap in employment you are almost immediately eliminated as a candidate for anything resembling a good position in any sort of professional field.

I eventually took a job as a security guard at a mall.

After that Fishonjazz gave me a referral to the place he works. I started there as a forklift driver. Within two months I moved from that position to the highest paid hourly position at that facility as an automated (robotic) equipment mechanic. I will be in Fishonjazz's debt for a long time. He gave me the opportunity I needed to change my life and be where I am now. I consider Fishonjazz a friend. And even if he said I wasn't his friend I wouldn't care. When he had an opportunity to help me he didn't make a public announcement of how awesome he was and how easily he could help me and then not do a damn thing. He helped me.

I gotcha. I was just legit unaware of how one does that.
 
I was not and I am not "mad" at Dr. Jones.

There was some carryover from another time Dr. Jones got butthurt because I said something critical of him. At that time he said he considered me a friend. I found that to be offensive.

Dr. Jones doesn't owe me jack ****. He doesn't even owe me respect.

When he posted that I was surprised. I went back and read my posts in that thread to try to understand why he felt like I was being pushy and why he interpreted it as a lame-assed defeatists outlook (aka loser mentality).

I'd like to read it again now that I'm not in what felt like at the time an overwhelming situation.

At this moment I'm as healthy and as happy as I've been in more than 10 years. At that moment I was at a low.

In 2006 I left the Navy after my father had killed himself and two months later my mother nearly killed herself.

In the aftermath of my father's suicide my mother and I had a falling out, which was painful because I had always been very close with my mother and I was having a difficult time dealing with my father's suicide.

Five years after my father died my mother was diagnosed with stage 5 cancer and given a few months to live. A few moths later, she died.

It affected my work and my personal life.

One day I left work for lunch and decided I didn't want to go back, ever.

I was unemployed for almost two years.

It was during that unemployment that my wife's car broke down.

Dr. Jones didn't need to offer any help. I would say he especially didn't need to publicly proclaim how easy it would be for him to help me if he had no intention of helping. But let's be super ****ing clear about one thing. He didn't owe me any help. I was not mad at him for not helping. But that encounter 100% took him out of friend status for me. The way he handled that is not the way I would ever handle a situation involving a friend.

So when he later stated that he considered me a friend I found that offensive.

That's not me being mad at him. This has nothing to do with being mad.

I know to publicly state that someone is NOT your friend makes it seem like I'm butthurt. But for me it was just a matter of clarification. I don't need someone who has not been my friend to make public statements about how he thought we were friends. That's phony, showy ********.

So in all this I'm the sensitive one and Dr. Jones is the cool one.

Whenever I have criticised Dr. Jones he's responded as he did here. In this thread he called me a miserable piece because I negged him wit this:



I know, I know, pretty brutal. And to hand him such a massive hit to his 95173 rep points. I'm a miserable piece for sure.

Dr. Jones has been the sensitive one. He's the one that seemingly can't handle a little very truthful criticism.

As I said, I'm as healthy and happy as I've been in a long time. As such I haven't been concerned with how I'm being perceived. Years ago I was on Jazzfanz always trying to be everyone's friend. Altering how I expressed my opinions because I worried that this person or that person might not like what I had to say. I don't feel that way now. I feel perfectly fine expressing how I feel without regard for how others will see me. If I think something is dumb I'll say so. If I think someone is being a dick I'll say so. If anyone likes me less for it that is fine. I'm not afraid of that.

I don't dislike Dr. Jones. Not even a little. I've just made it clear that I don't consider him a friend. I feel like my reasons for that are perfectly acceptable and I don't really need anyone else to validate my opinion.

I'm done with this thread.

Not looking for a job because you have money to fall back on...for a while.

Like I said, I was at a low.

You might have missed the whole family history of people killing themselves. My father's younger brother killed himself around this time as well.

My sister has made several very serious suicide attempts that she was saved from because someone was int he right place at the right time, against the odds, to save her. She's much better now and has been for a long time. But I have a family history of depression and suicide.

For the record I have never made the slightest attempt at suicide. Only one in my immediate family who can say that. I'm also the only one who has never been on anti-depressants. The only one who has not undergone significant mental therapy.

But regardless, I was not happy. I was not healthy. I was not fit for employment.

I'm very sure depression is hard for people who have not been seriously depressed to understand. I'm sure it's easy to assume it's about having a defeatist attitude, being lazy, etc.

Whatever.

And once you've had a gap in employment you are almost immediately eliminated as a candidate for anything resembling a good position in any sort of professional field.

I eventually took a job as a security guard at a mall.

After that Fishonjazz gave me a referral to the place he works. I started there as a forklift driver. Within two months I moved from that position to the highest paid hourly position at that facility as an automated (robotic) equipment mechanic. I will be in Fishonjazz's debt for a long time. He gave me the opportunity I needed to change my life and be where I am now. I consider Fishonjazz a friend. And even if he said I wasn't his friend I wouldn't care. When he had an opportunity to help me he didn't make a public announcement of how awesome he was and how easily he could help me and then not do a damn thing. He helped me.

The funny thing to me is that all I've done is expressed that I don't consider PKM a friend of mine and I don't think he's the best poster on the forum.

Somehow I need to defend that opinion. As if I don't have the right to form those personal opinions based on whatever criteria I see fit.

As if it is controversial to say such a thing. The absurdity of not thinking PKM is the best ever and a friend to all.

And that in expressing that I'm melting down.

Time to go to work.

See you guys tomorrow.

I've said what I have to say on this and I'm not in it for the drama. (edit -- apparently I hadn't said all I had to say haha)

I don't "know" PKM. I've interacted with him on Jazzfanz and met him once in a setting where I was busy and there were a lot of other people around. I have nothing but positive feelings about that interaction.

I get that my response can easily be dismissed as insecurity or whatever else. Based on this thread that's probably how I would read it if I wasn't me.

But this idea that PKM has spoken to me with the respect that one speaks to an equal with. Uhm, no.

In particular, I was unemployed several years ago and my wife's car needed about $5000 in repairs. I was expressing, in a thread in the UGLI forum, how difficult the situation was and my limited options and asking for advice. Not advice from anyone in particular, just wondering if anyone there knew of a way to navigate the auto warranty process, or if there was anything else I could do.

PKM chimes in telling everyone how he knows so-and-so who is one of the biggest so-and-sos dealing with the brand of car in question and then turns it to me and basically chastises me for not seeking him out because it would have been just so ****ing easy for him to pick up the phone and snap his fingers and a problem like mine would be solved.

He follows that up with a lecture on my negative outlook and that if I'm acting like a looser then there's no reason to help me anyway because I'm just going to continue to be a loser.

I post a response in the thread humbly asking that if it isn't any trouble if he could contact his friend. I follow that with a PM explaining my situation in greater detail.

He tells me that he'll see what he can do.

Keep in mind at this point I'm having daily contact with the national warranty department for this car manufacturer going back and fourth on weather this will be covered or not.

I tell my wife that there's this guy, oh you remember him, he came to our house with his wife for that one poker tournament, and he knows so-and-so who does whatever and he might be able to persuade the warranty dept to cover the vehicle and we won't have to figure out how to come up with thousands of dollars we didn't have.

I wait several days.

I send another PM asking if he had had an opportunity to call his buddy, you guys know, the guy he proclaimed in public he was very good friends with who could easily fix issues like this and that PKM is a winner and doesn't have to get down about stuff like this because he thinks like a winner.

His response was that he couldn't really remember what it was I was dealing with, please remind him of the details.

I explain the situation again...

That's it. Nothing else was said about that again. I was able to negotiate for the warranty to cover half the expense as a good will gesture and I had to borrow the other half of the money from my sister.

Life went on. I also had a fundamentally different opinion of the guy who proclaimed loudly how easy problems like this were to fix when you're not a loser. I bet a lot of people who read that thread assumed PKM made a phone call and helped me out.

There's also the mutiple times people have brought up this stupid idea that PKM offered to start a brewery with me. No such actual offer was ever made. Suggestions, in public, that he could do such a thing, might be inclined to do such a thing, were made. I've never seriously pursued the notion of starting a brewery. None of these suggestions came from me. And I never once considered PKM's public statements to be sincere or meaningful.

At some point much later someone brought that up and PKM said something to the effect that he'd back such a thing so long as I never once doubted that I was the best brewer in the world and my beer was the greatest beer. But if for one second I doubted myself he'd be out. Uhh-huh. Eyerolls ensued from this side of my monitor. If I ever wanted to start a brewery PKM would not make my top-100 list of people I would want to work with in that process.

Besides that, if you read any of his statements, he was never offering to go into business with me. I'm pretty sure, at best, he was offering to give me a loan. As he has stated many times that he makes most of his money nowadays from loaning people start-up money. So, you know, despite the public statements that made things seem one way, there was never a sincere offer on the table. It was all show.

So yeah, the guy who has told me on multiple occasions that I'm a loser and I think like a loser and I doubt myself like a looser says in this thread that I'm awesome and he's never once looked down on me?

PKM is pretty good at PR. I'll give him that.

I got it.

I thought carrying over your heartfelt advice to this thread was kind of douchy.

I've been the beneficiary of your holier than thou advice a few times. It's pretty much why you're not one of my favorite posters.

You're awesome though! I just don't consider people who look down on me and do the big brother thing to me friends. It's weird. I like being friends with people who respect me as their equal. I know I'm not every person's equal. There are people who are better than me. But if they insist on making a point of pointing it out I don't consider them friends.

Like I've said before. I like you fine. But we're not friends. I'm over it. I hope you can get over it, too.

Oh, I went back and looked at the thread in question. I wasn't sure if the UGLI forum password had changed and it hadn't. But I left that forum and stayed away out of respect. I did go back and peek today, though.

So I actually had just started working as a security guard for $9.50/hr when my wife's car broke down.

Just wanted to clarify. I had assumed this all happened in 2012, but it happened in 2013.

Just wanted to be sure no one missed your public trial.
And I may have missed the post pointing out how thin-skinned I am.

And I may have missed the post that tells the story of how I, basically, tried to make myself look important, "for show"... but you couldn't find it because it was in a private forum you weren't sure you still had access to.

We agree fish is a good dude. We all do, except for NAOS.

I'm just me bro. The good and bad. There are no less than a dozen posters here I have helped out and you won't be able to find a single post about it. In fact, a few don't even know it was me. Though my flaws are many.. I consider myself more good than bad.

Continue to write your novels if you choose, but I'm not sure who you're talking to.

I wish you well, sincerely, and when I called you a friend a long time ago I meant it. I no longer wish to engage with you, though, unless it's light-hearted JFC stuff.
 
Just wanted to be sure no one missed your public trial.
And I may have missed the post pointing out how thin-skinned I am.

And I may have missed the post that tells the story of how I, basically, tried to make myself look important, "for show"... but you couldn't find it because it was in a private forum you weren't sure you still had access to.

We agree fish is a good dude. We all do, except for NAOS.

I'm just me bro. The good and bad. There are no less than a dozen posters here I have helped out and you won't be able to find a single post about it. In fact, a few don't even know it was me. Though my flaws are many.. I consider myself more good than bad.

Continue to write your novels if you choose, but I'm not sure who you're talking to.

I wish you well, sincerely, and when I called you a friend a long time ago I meant it. I no longer wish to engage with you, though, unless it's light-hearted JFC stuff.

I've very publicly said that fish is a good dude. I said he's the guy I'd most like to get a beer with and watch a game. When we went through a rough patch and he placed 100% of the blame on me, I took exception to that. Doesn't mean he's not a good guy.
 
I've very publicly said that fish is a good dude. I said he's the guy I'd most like to get a beer with and watch a game. When we went through a rough patch and he placed 100% of the blame on me, I took exception to that. Doesn't mean he's not a good guy.

Okay, cool.
Back-pedaling is a good trait sometimes. Good on ya.
 
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I'm sooooo ready
 
well that was entertaining.


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I think PKM has helped more posters (even in terms of employment) than probably most/if not all of the other posters here, and I'd say him publicly exclaiming it would happen in the minority of instances. Just from what I know, Trout and UGLI moved to the Geezy because Peeks hooked them up with jobs.

With that said, I don't think GF has been unfair with how he's been feeling, with regards to the context of why he felt at the time, and why it fuels how he now feels-- and I can understand why he would take exception to some of the things he's mentioned, even if PKM had no intentions to construe things in that manner. The comment about his unemployment when he discussed his father's suicide was particularly cringe-worthy-- to a veteran no less.

I just think all of this has been discussed in a matter that is more dramatic than it had to be, and I think it was probably something that was best rectified in 2012 as opposed to letting it stew until now.


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TL;DR i think there's a disconnect with the two posters and it's one of those things that might not ever be truly connected. And I think inherently that two given people will connect with some parties moreso than others.
 
I've very publicly said that fish is a good dude. I said he's the guy I'd most like to get a beer with and watch a game. When we went through a rough patch and he placed 100% of the blame on me, I took exception to that. Doesn't mean he's not a good guy.

What the hell are you talking about fish is the devil's own!




I post, therefore I am.
 
now that judge Dal has weighed in, will this volcano go into remission? Or is Peeks still about to blow??
 
I've very publicly said that fish is a good dude. I said he's the guy I'd most like to get a beer with and watch a game. When we went through a rough patch and he placed 100% of the blame on me, I took exception to that. Doesn't mean he's not a good guy.

yall boning or something?
 
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