I was merely saying that I would prefer he have a job than that my issue was marginally less awful. And trust me, the entire thing isn't based on some linguistic misunderstanding or series of misunderstandings.
Thanks. I regarded jazzfanz as a semi-zone of privacy for me in the relationship. I kind of assumed I got the website in the breakup. Some of the financial details (the $30k bonus in particular) I didn't share with her because when it looked like this whole thing was going to work out I didn't want to make her feel bad about my moving for financial reasons. In essence I kept some details back to prevent her from feeling too guilty. In essence, she found out about that for the first time on this website, that's why I'm saying I have to be a little more discrete on here.
And I am hoping there is some path where we can normalize things. It would be ridiculous for me to claim I loved her for all these years and then to behave as if I didn't want her around at all. In that sense, I guess I do care about her feelings still even after she did what she did.
I too hope Fesenko finds a job in the league, both for his sake and yours. It'd be a fun distraction for you, and it's amusing for the rest of us to read about your adventures cheering for the jackpotting Russian.
As to your personal situation, you seem to have a good attitude. It might be natural that one's first inclination would be to demonize the other person, but as you mentioned, you devoted several years of your life to the relationship so you can't deny it. Whether or not you have any thoughts of possibly working things out with her in the long run, you've learned some valuable lessons that can serve you well in any future romantic relationships.
I hope both you and your former girlfriend find your own separate peace with the current situation. Best wishes to you Kicky for brighter days as the new year progresses.